Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Lessons from the Road.

A little over 5 years ago, I packed up Joey's truck and drove from California to Louisiana with my mother to meet Joey who had drove out to find a job a month earlier. The drive was agonizing. I found no solace on the road and felt very unnerved as I left behind everyone and everything I ever knew. When we drove back to California to visit the first time, still, nothing resolved between myself and the road. I don't know when it happened, this girl I am, who can pack up her two girls and drive 8 hours, (or even over 12) and actually enjoy it. As I packed up to come to Laura's house I knew I was leaving behind so many transgressions and would return a little bit different. This "work" trip is definitely not one of hard laborious work but one of hard spiritual work and release. My shower this morning was spiritual as I literally washed away the past three days emotions. The past three days where I beat myself up numerous times for feeling like I wasn't there for my child in the past few months. When my four year old would speak of things she has never spoken of before and bringing them into the light. So much to the story. More than I could handle. But from this, actions of hers, conversations with herself she has had, it is all starting to make sense.

On the road to Laura's there were many times the universe used it's magic to let me know it is all going to be okay. One that stuck out to me was from the sky. Three flocks of blackbirds flying in the sky. Large flocks. Two flocks joined at one point and did this beautiful dance where they then flew for a brief moment in an undeniable shape of a sparrow. 
"Blackbird awakens the mind with awareness as changes of perceptions are unfolding. He stirs psychic abilities and brings to consciousness latent healing gifts and creativity. Blackbird shows how to move with determination, focus and tenacity and how to use your power to its fullest potential. At this time there is a magic of the unseen worlds coming forth that is paired with the balance of grounding within the earth as you walk your path. Blackbird will guide in this new awakening. Blackbird teaches use of intuition that will aid in understanding Mother Nature and the connection to all things. Are you listening carefully to the seen and unseen worlds? Are you grounding and balancing your energy appropriately? Blackbird will teach much and bring new surprises when you least expect it. Pay attention and listen carefully."
"Sparrow aids in opening the eyes to our self-worth and instills dignity and empowerment. He teaches the importance of voice and communication and the timing of exertion and retreat. It is time to sing your song in all that you do. Sparrow teaches cooperation and sharing responsibilities whether at home or work. Are you helping or should you be helping or working more in some area of your life? Sparrow aids in survival instincts by sharpening intuition to make proper choices. He will bring to awareness any old tendencies so that you can realize the newer more conducive means of being. Sparrow teaches assertion so that you may survive in spite of any circumstances with a balance of joy and empowerment." -Source

I don't even know where to end this blog now that I sit here, mouth agape from these descriptions. So much digesting going on. I'm listening mother earth.
And by the way, my girls were roadtrip warriors!
Peace and Love.


  1. ::hugs:: Such a beautiful account of your recent experiences. Your growth will lead you to just where you need to be. Practicing faith in and on your path... :)

  2. such an awesome account of where you are going. your daughter sees you as her everything, and that's the good and the bad. you are her sun and moon, do not beat yourself up. the fact that she can talk to you is indicative of the open and transparent nature of your relationship. all good things. sending you my love.

    1. Thank you for the love and lovely words. I needed to hear that.


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